Well I can't think of anything to do, its midnight on a thursday and I'm not at all tired, so I guess I'm going to write. I've been holding back my bitching because its not like me to post several times in the same month.

I feel like crap on several fields. I feel like crap because I'm sick, have been since Saturday night(Sunday morning really) when I got a headache so bad I couldn't sleep, and then sunday a fever thats come and gone a few times now. I feel like crap about some things that I did, and some things I didn't do that I should have. My friend Jeff says I'm thinking about it too much, and that too much introspection doesn't just lead to finding things you don't like but in-fact leads to making up things about your self not to like. This may be damn true. I guess thats what happens when a person has as much free time as I.

I've got too much time on my hands. This is definite. I called the company I applied to the other day and they informed me that the man responsible for hiring is out of contact, on a moose hunt in Alaska. I found this very odd.

Two years ago I was out of school, high-school, and everyone was gone like this. I forgot until recent weeks just how hard it was for me then. Jeff's been bitching at me to go up to Fargo with him, I don't know that I would want to / could.

How does someone go to a school for nearly two years and not make any friends... I digress.

Winters pretty much here already, how did that happen? I need to get a start on my annual Halloween illustration... Last years was somewhat disappointing and I'm hoping for something better this year. Any ideas for it I'd love to hear them. Here are some links to the previous two...

The first halloween image...  and the second...  I really havn't done much with my Wacom in a while, a bunch of sketches but other than that nothin'

I saw a friend from high school I haven't seen in a while on saturday. We watched some anime and talked. It was good to see him... I'm not sure if he reads my live journal any more, he used to... Are you reading this? I'm down to two people who actually even acknowledge the existence of live journal any more, meka_slorne and ketinara. If you're reading this and you're someone else, give me a shout out. Hell, give me a shout out if you're one of those two too, just for kicks and giggles. Well I guess it does get forwarded to my facebook page, but I get even less comments on there.

I've been watching a lot of TV lately, more than I should. I don't have cable here in Watertown, so its all broadcast.

• Prison Break:
• New season of Prison Break doesn't even deserve to be capitalized, thats how bad it is. This man who's supposed to be a genius faked his own death and then called the cell phone of his girl friend as if he had no idea it would be tapped. Gah.
  
• House
• House, do you watch House? House is good, new season started a little slow, but has been pretty good. I have not been disappointed.
  
• Men in Trees
• Men in Trees... my dad loves this show, its quite possibly the worst new show of the season. It features Anne Heche, the previous lover of Ellen DeGeneres if I'm not mistaken. After her marriage fails she decides to live in Alaska... It features a recurring raccoon which is obviously a dog in a raccoon suit, along with lots of other lame-ities... that should so be a word.
  
• The Office
• Lastly, tonight's new episode of the Office was just lame at best... It was awkward, and just not really funny.

I need typing gloves "Gloves to where whilst I type!" as I just told Jeff... to which he replied "they call those gloves" it is so cold down here in the basement it hurts to type.

Well this is a more full size post than my last couple...

As I've been ending a lot of letters lately:

Love and Kisses,
Jesse G. Donat

I always write when I’m tired… I think the walls fall down when I’m tired or something, but oh well. What’s new with me you ask again? Well, I graduate on I believe June 22nd, my life after that: unknown. I have no idea what I’m going to do. I’m completely idea-less. Last month or so’s been a little testing on me, as I began to get over my what I now label daylight savings time depression a good friend of mine comes to me with some very serious problems, and I’m not sure what to do about the situation at all but that’s neither here nor there. Most of my friends are back and I’ve been trying my best to become a social being again, but its hard I tell you. You go eight months and only have contact with humans on the occasional breaks, you end up awkward, even more than I was to start… And theres a part of me that just wants to be alone, part of me that completely identifies with Thoreau. The part that asks why I should need to even enter society let alone interact with it. I don’t know what to think, I try not to control my thoughts. I spent a portion of tonright reminiscing about elementary school with another good friend. We are on a search to find a girl by the name of Nyssa, whom we went to elementary school with and were good friends with. Jeff actually managed to find a post on a website from 1997 of a response she had written. http://www.learner.org/jnorth/1997/challenge/manatee/0003.html anything newer though is lacking. We haven’t seen her since Jr. High and she just dropped off the face of the earth.
I realized the other day through comments of a person I usually hate, especially for comments that he made about me today, that I am completely mentally immature, and infact a huge ass for it, as my unwillingness to let it go combined with other situations has added to me getting away with things other people would not.

Well now for what seems to have become a nearly monthly update of the life of Jesse Donat. As you can see I've changed the title of my Live Journal. Should I change the color scheme? I've had this for a while, and it' nice but I need change. As many of you know already from my nearly constant pestering, I've changed Oasisband.net. I've put a lot of work into the site recently, and am preparing to roll out an updated movies page as well, even considering redoing the database, again, which is a lot more work than I really want to do, but it would allow for a very improved user experience.

I've come to a realization. Every year after daylight savings time I become horribly depressed for a period of a few weeks. Check my first entry; it was on Apr. 16th, 2004. That's practically two years ago today. As crazy as it sounds, I think it's the extra sunlight. Whereas some people get depressed from lack of sun during the winter, I think I actually suffer from the reverse. When I signed up for live journal two years ago it was because I just did not feel right and needed a place to just write down some crap. Well that mysteries solved.

What else is up? On the school kind of thing I graduate after this term ends like June 26th, if all goes as planed Valedictorian none the less. What I do after I graduate with my Associates degree, damned if I know. For this quarter I was supposed to get an internship. Joel, the gracious host of our Oasisband.net actually offered me one and I am taking him up on it, which should be interesting to get some semi-professional coding experience. This quarter I was set up to have two classes on Monday / Wednesday and one class Tuesday / Thursday, but the decision was made to move the third class to Monday / Wednesday, so at the moment I have two days of class each week with a four day weekend. Talk about a light load, especially compared to last quarter where every day I was getting at least one, sometimes two very complicated assignments. Last term ended up being the toughest yet, and I had doubts about maintaining my 4.0 but Forshizzle assured me I would, and I did.

Also, if you havn't played Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion, you should. It will blow your mind. It is one of the greatest games I have played in quite a long time. But be forewarned, it is very addictive. The first weekend I played it I started at like 9 am Friday straight through until Sunday at 4 pm, with a break on Saturday as Andrew Gross stopped by with Forshizzle and we went to Chipolet. Also, I have a myspace account setup now, its lame, almost as lame as MySpace is in general. http://www.myspace.com/donatj Well, that is about all I can think to write at the moment.