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On the friday after Thanksgiving I moved out. Moved back to Hopkins after... a little over 4 years. A friend, Stephanie, rents a room down stairs. I'm living in my parents old room. Living out on my own is interesting, I'm liking it quite a bit. Taking some getting used to, can be lonely at times.
Friend Jeff stayed with me for a few weeks over Christmas break, which helped me get settled in.
Well short post for now. I'll go into more details later. Just don't want to give up on my Live Journal
For anyone I haven't blabbed to about my new Laptop yet, its one of Apples new MacBook Pro's. Link Its machined from a single piece of Aluminum. Has glass in front of the CRT as well as a buttonless glass track pad. Its not only the largest, most sensitive track pad I've ever used, but its multi-touch capabilities are amazing. This thing is soo sturdy feeling... I love it. I also love that the vents are on the vents are not on the bottom, where my Dell had them, so I can in fact safely set this on my bed.
Well its 2 am, and I'm tired. Look forward to another post tomorrow or the next day on some major changes in my life. as well as possibly some updates to this post (photos of the laptop, etc.) I'm just too tired at the moment.
All goes well though, I’m moving out into the Hopkins house when the pipes and van get fixed. Should definitely improve my commute time.
Moreover here is why I’m writing. I got my license Thursday and I was ecstatic. By Saturday I was back to my gloomy self. As I receive more and more of the things I’ve always wanted and they all fail to bring a lasting lack of gloom I question whether or not anything will ever help. I had always assumed it was from lack of being around people, but even in Japan, around good friends for two solid weeks there were times where I was quite gloomy. Well though, now that I have my license this will allow a higher degree of freedom, certainly, and we will see where this leads. This could be a brave new world for me.
Here’s hoping I don’t kill my self driving.
Here's hoping that rant wasn't too crazy for you... its 2 am on a Sunday and I can't sleep.
- Temper:
confused - Noise:Silence
- Temper:
indescribable - Noise:Lambchop - Lets go Bowling
I know someone out there, probably Jeff is still waiting for me to talk about Japan, it has been 2 months now for crying out loud, but my mind is just a mess. Its settled some in the last few weeks, but there's still a ways to go. For now, I give you my favorite photo of me ever, taken in the most amazing hotel I've ever stayed in.
I have been playing a lot of video games lately (finally using my PSP), I have to say though that I don't think they're indusive (not a real word?) to a propper grip on reality, (I know at least once person who does nothing but play games and has a grip on reality far worse than my own) although they have certainly been helping me deal. I think though like as though methadone, they should only be used to help me ease back in to the real world rather than act as a substitute for it.
I was scheduled to take my drivers test this coming Wednesday but canceled because I've missed so much work lately (kidney stone) and didn't feel I should be missing more. I'll reschedule at a later date, hopefully with more driving experience.
There are things I would like to rant about, but I'm tired, and I think I'm going to head to bed. Look forward to more posts soon, anyone left reading this.
Anyway, Japan post is still pushed off by recent happenings. Re: My Surgery.
Last Wednesday I had an appointment to see the urologist if my kidney stone hadn't yet passed. It had not. After some discussing my options he decided it would be best to put a stint in my ureter to allow my kidney to drain and prevent damage, as well as determine if we would be able to break it up with sound. They wanted to do the surgery that day but they couldn't get an operating room, so it was moved to the following day.
The next day, Thursday, they do the actual surgery. Allow me to describe the basic concept to you, They insert a scope and a probe into my urethra, locate my left ureter, and navigate the probe with stint to the stone. I'm not certain the exact positioning of the stint as related to the stone, but I do know that they believe the stone to be good and lodged, and the area well inflamed. Breaking it up with sound was not an option due to these facts as well as the location.
Instead they put me on a cocktail of drugs (pictured) in an attempt to dissolve the stone (these are on top of my pain killers), and this coming Wednesday I'm going in for a scan to determine whether its helping or if they're going to need to cut me open to laser it.As painful as the surgery was (urinating the first few times was one of the most painful experiences of my life) the constant excruciating pain I had since returning from Japan has entirely lifted. I think I got more done at work today than I did in the last two weeks combined.
There is at least one surgery left, where they will remove the stint, possibly two if they remove the stone at a separate time. I'm not sure what they'll do.
I need to do something, being trapped at home / work in pain the last two+ weeks after getting back from Japan has been probably the worst cabin fever of my life.
- Temper:
contemplative - Noise:All-Time Quarterback - Rules Broken
Just when I thought my life might be starting to get back to normal, getting over the Jet Lag, all that good stuff, I wake up Thursday morning with a pain in my back, and not just any pain, a terrible pain, a pain that just keeps getting worse no matter what I try. I end up calling in and heading to the Emergency Room in what happened to be the least comfortable car ride of my life. In fact I might call it the worst pain of my life. I get to the ER and they do some tests, give me a cat scan, and put an IV in me. Doctor comes over, ends up I have a kidney stone. I have to say better now than when I was in Japan if it had to happen, but my preference would certainly be for the route where it never happens.They've got me on some pain meds for the time being, and I get to strain my pee, sounds like fun, no? Its been almost two days now though and if I don't pass it soon, I'm going to need to go back in.
Japan post is still coming, I promise. Here's hoping I pass this thing soon and its not too incredibly painful, as I'm sure it will be. I'd just like to say of everything on the trip, the one thing I miss most is being with people, the daily intelligent conversation. I miss that quite a bit.
- Temper:
frustrated - Noise:Silence
Hopefully early next week will be better. Until then, I'm going to bed.
Your Friend,
Jesse G. Donat
- Temper: confused
It has been a little while since I’ve written a live journal post. I never know what to talk about anymore.
Two weeks from Friday (yesterday, its been a few nights since I wrote this) I leave for Japan, its so exciting I still don’t realize it’s happening I think. I’ve had trouble comprehending reality lately if that makes sense, it’s just been a flow of go to work, come home, go to sleep, repeat. I’ve had absolutely no introspection, and it’s a new form of dull. The self-loathing is gone, and replaced with just a general zombie like “life” if you can even call it that.
Since I don’t think I mentioned it, new version of Oasisband.net has launched with next to no fanfare. Alas, still haven’t finished the admin among other things. I wonder if we actually lost any Omnipresence users? We’ve had maybe 30 signups of people I don’t know actually, many of which still had the original account text.
Quite literally had a rude awakening a few nights back. After having been in bed for maybe an hour I noticed something poking my back. I assumed it was a ladybug because we tend to get a lot of them in the house, living across from a cornfield and all. On grabbing my flashlight to inspect, it was the bottom half of a wasp, stinger in tact. At this point I was fairly unsettled, and looking around I managed to find several other parts including the head and a wing … yuck
I got a new old stock Apple Design Keyboard from 1996, paired that with an ADB to USB adapter, and its making for something much nicer to type on than the beautiful but painful flat aluminum board this thing came with.
Final thought. This was written a few days ago as I mentioned above, but I never got around to posting it. In that time I found out my father is going in for angioplasty and possibly a stint on Tuesday. We’ll see how this turns out...
Final Final thought. This working thing sucks, its 12:18 on a Saturday and I'm thinking about going to bed.
- Temper:
tired - Noise:Tegan and Sara - Where Does the Good Go
